things i have to look forward to

tomodachi life living the dream: 2026

deltarune: 2026

tadc: idk

tpot 20: idk? october?

more dandys world like the halloween update

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halloween

the day after halloween

christmas

new years

everyone i hate will eventually die

most people i dislike are a product of their upbringing, and hating them for the naive beliefs they were raised with is a losing game. i instead just feel bad for them and hope someday they can mature 

starbucks

fun times with friends

five below

going to petsmart and seeing the funny little snakes and birds and guinea pigs and they're so cute

going to goodwill after people donated all their digital cameras because of the rapture

going to tj maxx and buying juicy couture

going to st louis for the korean grocery store and eating good food again finally oh my god

someday moving out to chicago and being happy again

birthday i guess. i dont really wanna get older anymore im not ready

machine fucker microfiction on tumblr

petting my cats

kicking my legs and giggling as i snack on whatever and looking at pinterest 

the next hyperfixation

oh wicked 2 in theaters

playing deltarune

building in roblox

webfishing maybe?

writing horrifying and/or tragic shit on wattpad

listening to music

warm blankets after a shower and you're cold

going to sleep after being really tired

delicious gas station hot cocoa

that roadtrip to florida after the school year

waking up in the middle of the night and looking at your phone and you have so much more time until you gotta get up

that period of time at the end of the school year when you're still technically in school but you're not doing anything so its just kinda chill

sleep

feeling pretty in my lipgloss n my new dior perfume because my aunt has this beauty box thing and she gives me the stuff she doesnt want

drugs man idk im grasping at stuff i can buy drugs when i move out n i wont have to worry about sneaking my dads stuff anymore

waking up in the morning and your mom got donuts

genuinely laughing and not just laughing because you feel socially obligated to but like genuinely uncontrollably laughing because you think its funny

money

my hair growing out and i can have really really really long hair

drawing

incense

bubblegum

seeing real snow now that i dont live in dallas

yummy food mm mmm that porkchops in the fridge i cook that

the thought of mass extinction and death does not frighten me, long after im gone and long after we're all gone, the earth will recover no matter how long it takes and whatever species lives on after us whatever time this is, they will live on and none of them will know we even existed. we'll be in and out with only a few footprints

paw paws they are so yummy they're not a really well known fruit because of how short their period of ripeness is, they're native to my area, they literally taste like banana candy. their texture is kinda weird its sorta just mush but you can just scoop it out with your fingers like a duvalin

what the fuck i just looked up duvalin those things came with a spoon??? where was the spoon i just ate it with my fingers and my tongue

if yall dont know what duvalin is its this mexican candy its kind of just like various neopolitan flavor nutella in like a little container. like its strawberry vanilla and chocolate nutella-type thing in a container and you just kinda eat it.

i love candy

soft pretzels with cheese dip hell yea

those little honey sticks you cut open and its like a little straw of honey? yall know those? hell yea

dunker school lunch cheesesticks hell yea

ohhh sushi from chinese buffet hell yea

bro those people didnt give me chopsticks i felt like some kind of shunned animal eating it with my hands becaues i would rather die than eat it with a fork

ive gone from tired to hungry

crab rangoon auuuooogh 

cream cheese salami mustard everything bagel sandwich istg that fucks

clarinet i like playing my clarinet

salted peanuts

strange buildings book idk when thats coming out

reading the rest of my wicked saints book omg i left it in my locker at school cuz i didnt think i would wanna raed it and i doooooo 😭🥀

fucking lockers man that's one thing im not looking forward to i hate lockers, at my old school they let us just have our backpacks i aint like getting uncomfortably close to some random people 

ok positive thoughts

um self vampirism i aint gonna get into detail on that cuz thats gross but that ones just for me

OH WOOPS THATS NOT WHAT I MEAN. ok i am not DRINKING MY OWN BLOOD FOR SEXUAL PLEASURE im just eating a crusty scabbed wound on my scalp and also eating crusty scabbed wounds just in other places on my body. lot of sick people nowadays good thing im normal

i cant do that rn cuz i just showered so its gonna be all gross and moist and bloody and taste like shampoo

lizard haha

fall like real colors i hear they have real colors in fall here

in texas everything just kinda turns gross and brown and dead thats why it was my least favorite season but that might change this year idk

i need to go to bed its 12:50 and i have school tommorow

sometimes it can be hard to find things to look forward to but remember that it will always come, no matter how desolate it seems

stay strong guys we cant kill ourselves yet