what’s the point of life?

please do not read if you’re sensitive to the following topics: death, suicide, depression, or are prone to dissociation/derealization (not sure abt that bc i don’t experience those but just in case)

or if you just don’t want to read something really negative and pessimistic. i don’t want to shit on anyone’s good day yk i’m not a dick (._.)

*i’m no longer suicidal, even if some things i say may make it sound like i am (if that makes sense)

**whenever i say “you” it’s not pointed towards anyone, if you have a dream, go for it! this isn’t meant to uninspire (i can’t think of a better word) anyone. follow your dreams! do amazing things in life! /pos

***this is hella disorganized sorry guys (ｰ ｰ;)

— what’s the point of life? —

or,

— is there a point to living? —

>last year i had a really bad depressive episode—i could barely get out of bed and i had suicidal thoughts nearly every day for a month or so (i’m better now). those constant suicidal thoughts kept making me think (besides the obvious) “why am i alive?” “what’s the point of all this?” and others i won’t be sharing due to irrelevancy etc

everyday it’s the same routine:

weekdays: wake up at 6am, get out of bed, get ready for school, go to school, go home, do hw, go to sleep

weekends: wake up at 6am-12pm (depends), do random stuff, do hw if it’s sunday, then go to sleep

no matter what, you’ll die, so what’s the point?

i’m not religious, so i don’t believe if you do certain things you’ll get heaven or whatever, or that i necessarily have a “purpose” in life if that makes sense

i mean, with all that’s going on i wouldn’t be surprised if there’s a ww3 or something

sure, you may move on to do great things. maybe you’ll cure cancer! that would be amazing! you’d help so many people live a life they never thought would be possible (if we lived in a perfect world. majority of people would never get the cure because they wouldn’t be able to afford it)

“you only live once, so don’t waste it”

ok, so you find hobbies to pass the time and distract yourself from your impending doom/death. great job! you made friends that make you happy, that’s amazing!

sure, sometimes there will be original or fun experiences, but what does it all matter? that small moment of satisfaction? or happiness?

everyone, everything will all eventually die out (“except for atoms bc they last forever they just get rearranged into new molecules ☝️🤓”)

that small moment of happiness will be gone in an instant.

something bad will happen, and that happiness will be gone.

maybe it’ll be replaced with sorrow. maybe anger. maybe nothing. just blank thoughts. or maybe it’ll turn into so much you can’t even remember what happened.

this statement honestly troubles me the most. it’s honestly a decent counterpoint. exactly, you DO only live once, so do stuff you like!

but it always goes back to “you only have limited time [left]” 

so, what IS the meaning life? what’s the point of living?

if it wasn’t obvious throughout the blogpost, i’ve been thinking more and more that life is meaningless, at least in a way

some things do have weight and add some meaning,

but i feel like if you’re not a specific way (rich, fit into the beauty standards, etc), life is just…not the best it could be?

don’t get me wrong, some people who aren’t rich/wtv (aka the majority of earth, bc by rich i mean RICH), have an amazing life and enjoy themselves. and i love that for them! 

i guess i just don’t see the point of life for me, specifically

i don’t know, honestly

i don’t know how to put my thoughts onto paper (or in this case, a screen)

but really, what’s the point of living? if there even is one.

*also, please, religious people, i fully respect you, but if you’re going to comment please don’t have it be tied to [your] religion IF you’re going to be like “this is the meaning/purpose of life for EVERYBODY” if you’re like “this is MY purpose!” then that’s fine! :D 

i’m just not religious so i don’t want anyone to try and push their religion on me yk it makes me uncomfortable ;-;

-charli