being gay in ireland

im so freaking sick of being mlm and chubby its like no one actually likes you and if they do and you ask would you be my boyfriend they say 'mhhhhm sorry i think we'd be better as friends' basically saying yea i like you but you're too whatever to actually be my type im just so over it and if there is a boy you like hes either straight or DL OR ELSE its like skinny punie liitle like eleven yo's who have some age gap kink thinking they've a chance...anyway rant over :P