(#2) i'm getting worse.

update: i'm on the verge of relapsing.

my impulsive thoughts are becoming more dangerous and i don't know what to do anymore. none of my family members or friends want to take me seriously. they're probably thinking that im just going through normal teenage angst, but i'm so so close to hurting them.

if i don't get help soon, i'll probably hurt others and myself. one mean comment from someone in this household is enough to make my knuckles white. i don't know where all this anger is supposed to go.

if you know any ways that i can do to help myself, please share it. this is my last resort. i need to do something.