Ranting about my boyfriend I just broke up with

Be careful who you give you're heart to ...straight up never did I ever think I would ever place myself in a vulnerable state at my age you'd think as long as I been around the block I'd had learn a thing or two about the shitty ass love choices I made ...ok so check it out I knew it was doomed even before it began but I gave it a chance and in a way I'm glad I did I learned to harden my heart say fuck you to love and all it's evil burden it has placed upon my heart ...I met a guy a really hot one he's of the muslim faith ( nothing wrong in that and most definitely not hating) however I have never dated a muslim man before and I swear this guy was weird I was told I could wear makeup fix my hair and I had to be covered from head to toe and I admit I did it for him however boy was I foolish but I woke up I put my foot down and said no no no I'm doing me I'm with your ass but we in America your laws do not apply here homie he got mad really mad in fact he started talking about cheating on me and having threesomes meanwhile he told me I couldn't go out or see my friends without his permission I listened again foolish well tonight he rubbed it in my face he was going out to drink maybe pick up some girls etc with his friends and that if I knew wtf was good for me I'd keep my ass at home that I'm ugly no one would want me etc my heart dropped I'm older I'm 46 yr old  and I'm slightly chunky etc and I'm Transgender he told me no one would want me I at first become depressed eariler I wanted to die I did however I didn't instead I told his sorry ass to go to hell I'm so better off being single cause I'm tired of going round and round searching for love out of men who do not know let alone understand the definition of the word...word of advice guys and girls guard your heart it's the most precious belonging you own don't let no one steal it or break it mine was shattered however it's cool I may be flawed I may even be ugly and in his words to nasty to love and that's fine cause I love myself more then I ever could love another ...sad but true but if you walk to life getting broken hearted by every asshole who swings your way you so need to guard your heart to prevent that I won't bash anyone nor will I tell anyone not to date lol no quite the opposite what I am saying at our age or yours it's time to protect your heart even if it means being alone alil while I'm doing wtf I got do to fix and mend wtf this asshole tore apart I had the last laugh the locks are changed his ass got a ride awakening coming if he tries to come home to me and sees he is the one on the outside looking in I'm done I'm over it and love time to put my fuck you boots on and start kicking cause I refuse to drown in sadness life is to precious to be hurt over some asshole who never had a clue about real love on that note let me post this I needed to vent nothing more but yeah