i never thought i would despise someone this much but here we are (poem)

i have not once reached my potential

when it came to hate and now

when I think of you

all i think of is how much i hate you

how much i despise you

how much i am damaged by you

how much i will never forget

i have forgotten so much of my past

i have forgotten 10 years of my life

and yet you linger in my head

i can still feel your hands on me

whether it be a punch

a kick

your mouth

your hands your malicious hands

they held something for me

they had a plan for me and i get the feeling

it was never good

it was never a good plan

it’s a blessing i made it out alive

it’s a blessing i am alive

after everything youve done

how can i get over it?

you haven’t gotten over something from,, i dont know,, 7 years ago

how am i supposed to get over last year?

how am i supposed to get over

your hands grabbing me

hitting me

caressing my spine

when my body had tensed at the sight of you

how am i supposed to get over it?

you had overwhelmed me with fear

you had overwhelmed me with pain

i am now overwhelmed with hate

after you have continued to victimise yourself

and i have once more been disregarded by society