you're so pretty it makes me wanna cry

Dear Nobody.

You're so pretty it makes me wanna cry

I'm skinnier than I've ever been

My clothes are falling off my frame

My whole body is sunken in

It would seem I'm eating less again

The mirror doesn't lie

I'm prettiest when I look like I might die

Trembling compliments of mine meet the mirror

You're so pretty it makes me wanna cry.

I feel like getting better would be best for me moving forward, obviously, but where would the 'now' me go, will I disappear, the thought terrifies me. The 'better me' and the 'now me' can't coexist. Speaking as the 'now' me, I don't wanna disappear.

~IBLIS