(Vent sorta) My deal with relationships and a bit more

Hello there peoples! I come to you today in hopes to vent a bit (sorta) this one being about my deal with relationships. also it's me talking about real stuff and being vulnerable with mah emotions and stuffs, so please be nice :D

So, I'm Aroace which in short means I'm Aromantic and asexual. Now you might think, oh! that means you'd be ok with not being in a relationship because you don't feel those kinds of attractions... and you'd be wrong. Yes, I don't feel romantic attraction, but I so deeply want to! I'm a hopeless romantic who yearns for something I can't reach, I know I can still be in a relationship, but it's hard when you're socially awkward and don't know how to even find someone who'd wanna be in a relationship with someone like you... anyhow. That's just how I feel, I'm sure someday I'll find someone and I really hope that day comes sooner rather than later.

I've tried many times, trying to find someone online, but those always end up in me getting ghosted. Even though I never did anything wrong... I have nothing against people in long distance/online relationships tho, if it works out then heck ye! That's awesome :0

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Sometimes I lay down on my bed hugging my childhood plushie ofc! and I just think of cute scenarios that make me really happy! like two characters I really like together being really sweet to each other, doing little things for one another, cuddling late into the night. I saw this cute audio where this couple is chilling, and one of them says they feel like an orange. Then the guy says they feel like a tomato, but they didn't actually feel like an orange, they just wanted an orange. Then the guy says Oh! Well I can go get one for you, and then says something along the lines of I'll peel it, cut it and sauté it for you if you want! (not me rambling about an audio I heard that I found cute-) ANYWAYS, I just love stuff like that yk, just felt like rambling on about this tbh. Crazy if you're still reading this-

well, one more thing. Recently I learned about this thing called a QPR (Queerplatonic relationship) which is pretty much a relationship that doesn't require things most relationships call for. I'm not that good at explaining, so if you wanna know more please feel free to search it up! People in QPRs even have a nickname for each other like Boyfriend or girlfriend and it's ZUCCHINI!!! Isn't that absolutely adorbs! ;-; I need me a zucchini asap lol

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Anywayss, thanks for reading all this if you did! I just wanted to talk about this even if it's relatively private for me and I don't usually talk about these kinds of things. I wanted to both to get this out there, and also just incase people relate to me. If you relate to this than know you aren't alone, I am also a silly hopeless romantic lol. but either way I will just continue enjoying my time with my friends and family. When the time comes and find mah special someone I'll let yall know... maybee, teehee *wink*

Welp, Ima go to bed now! Have a nice rest of your day/night! You are loved and remember to drink water cause it's good for you and also it's delicious! :D

Song I'm listening to rn is Time Adventure from adventure time (cover version by MathimaticPony) it's so good!! aghh :3