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i have one hell of a love story going on and i just NEED to talk about it!!! so... theres this guy. we met in the 7th grade, but only became friends at the beginning of 8th. we bacame BEST friends months after we started talking regularly. our "friendship" became a platonic relationship. i had liked him since before christmas 2024. i'd only realized i liked him about 8 months ago, then in march of 2025 i suddenly confessed to him. he liked me back (YAYAYA) and we started dating. we dated from march 28th to may third. he had been keeping me a secret from his dad. what happened was, his father interrogated him, and demanded we break up ! at the time, we had both been doing kickboxing together, so he mustve asked who i was, because he saw us talking a lot.. i was devastated. me and him didnt talk for weeks. then, we became friends again. then we were once again in a "platonic relationship..." then we had a school trip, we sat together on the bus ride there, and on the bus ride back. the whole three days we were practically glued to eachother. on the ride there, i overstepped a bit and kissed him on the cheek, so that was probably why, but it was just on the cheek, right ?! that doesnt mean anything... right ?? i had never kissed him before, not even on the cheek, so it took a lot of courage for me to do that.. anyways, we became close again after that year-end trip. a few days after school let out, he came over again, and.. guess what ?! WE KISSED. FOR REAL. multiple times, even !!! it wasnt my first kiss, but it made me so happy !!! i had been meaning to do that for so long !!! we started dating again, but this time we didnt tell anyone. we didnt make it obvious. we dated for almost the whole summer ! and then guess what ?? before summer ended his dad found out about us AGAIN. he went through my bfs phone :( i felt so bad, and i tried to break up with him, but we never officially broke up. he just kept repeating "its ok, you didnt do anything wrong." but i DID. he got in trouble and it was my fault ! we didnt talk for a week or two, and then the cycle repeaded a THIRD freaking time. we became friends again, and then best friends, and now we just kiss on a regular basis, and i dont even know what we are ! because we never officially broke up but we never officially got back together, and now that we're in high school he sees his older brother more often so you'd think he'd try to be more secretive about it right ?! but we still kiss almost every day ! and the other day i called him gay (as one does) and he was like "how am i gay ? lol i have a gf" and i was like "you do ?! no you dont ?!" and he looked at me and started laughing and now i dont know what to so when somebody asks me if im single because we arent supposed to be dating but everyone thinks we are but novodys supposed to think that and he's so hot that i cant break up with him (i mean, i dont even know if we're even DATING ?!) but j know i should because if i dont his dad'll get angry at him and might punish him even worse this time but i love him so much, im nothing without him !! aaahhh, what do i do ?!?!? anyways... aha.. thats all i guess...
why are relationships so complicated?!?!?
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sh1n3
I have so many questions
wah ! ask away !
by Lou; ; Report
so currently are you gonna go back to him? whats gonna happen, ik im a bit late
by sh1n3; ; Report
ok so we didnt talk for a while fsr and then on a field trip to a musical play thing we sat together on the bus ride and kissed and snuggled and stuff and we sat tg in the theatre and walked around together all day and sat the on the ride back, and then we didnt talk for a little and then i confronted him about it and i was like "so are we dating?" and he was like "ehhhh..." and then i said "so you wouldn't care if i like dated someone else?" and he was like "its your life i dont care" basically, and that broke my heart, and then we didnt talk for like a week again and i still love him and i dont want to love him anymore because i didnt think ge cared about me so i was trying to force myself ro rebound onto this other guy to distract myself even though i know i'll never date him, and a little while ago our school was hosting a volleyball tournament so our gym class sat in our schools workout room, and i was talking to a friend about the other guy and about how i might end up dating me, and the guy i liked heard and i saw his eyes tearing up and he was breathing really heavy so i think he might still like me a little? so after i saw him crying, on the lunch break, i saw him sitting alone at lunch so i went to talk to him and i asked him if he was ok, and he basically just ignored me, so then i said i was sorry and that i was worried about him and him told me something along the lines of "i think you should worry about yourself before you worry about other people" which is basically telling me to work in myself, and now the other guy who i was lowkey using to distract myself likes me and i dont like him back because im still in love with my (now) ex and i feel terrible for lowkey using the other guy because he'd be a good boyfriend but he wouldnt be a good boyfriend for ME because i know i wont ever get over my first love and theres nothing i can do about it. i've been in love with him for almost a year and it's driving me insane. and now he wont talk to me, he wont even look at me, he hates me so much and i live him so much but of course i'd never tell him that, and he keeps reposting all these sad instagram reels and tiktoks and i feel terrible and i hate myself and i hate him for hating me but i love him so much that i could never hate him and now i dont know what to do because the other guy keeps dmming me
and i still like boy A 
im gonna die 
by Lou; ; Report
also the reason we werent talking for a little at first was because i asked him "so are we dating or not!?? make up your mind !" and he was like "ehhhhh" and then i was liek "so do you hate me or something then ?" and he didn't say anything and just looked at me like
and i was like "ok thats great." and then he walked to his brothers car to leave and i got sad. and if i dont talk to him he doesnt talk to me so i just didnt talk to him for a little which was honestly a mistake because we grew apart in that time. so yeah 
im so mad at myself but im so in love, im balls deep and i cant get outt
by Lou; ; Report
bro I feel bad for the one guy getting caught up in all this, he is the real victim ngl
by sh1n3; ; Report
so.. me and him haven't been together recently. He's started to drink alcohol and smoke weed. He also hasn't been showing up to school. The other guy who got involved has been texting my and I've lowkey been ghosting him. I think I'm developing a little crush on a guy in my homeroom, but he's sort've friends with my X and I think... he might be secretly gay for him. For reals. I asked him and he said it was "just bromance" but I think there might be something else going on...
by Lou; ; Report
HAHA bromance might just be a cover up you better watch out if its like that
by sh1n3; ; Report
so turns out my ex is a dick and the other guy is also a jerk. sigh..
by Lou; ; Report
so turns out my ex is a dick and the other guy is also a jerk. sigh..
by Lou; ; Report