I Kept Pretending I Was Strong

I kept pretending I was strong 

hoping someone would see through the lie

and save me.

but no one ever did.

every mask I wore

every name I answered to,

only pushed e further from the person I use to be

if that person ever even existed,

human

ghoul 

victim 

monster.

I don’t know which one is real

or if I am just a hollow reflection 

of everything I have lost. 

I reach for an identity. 

for a truth that feels like mine.

but all I find is a scared child 

wanting for a mother,

for love…

that meant sacrificing myself 

until there was nothing left.

and now…

after everything…

I wonder…

was I always meant to disappear?

- REAPZ™