actually…no

i’m actually so tired of this. everyday i feel like i’m drowning in this self loathing. does anyone relate? i’m getting so tired of my life and i don’t know what to do. everyone has the same advice or milquetoast responses whenever i try to communicate. i talked to 988 yesterday. i’m still waiting on the therapist appointment to be made but the institution is taking so long and i honestly don’t know how much longer i can take this before i crash the fuck out.

can anyone else relate? i honestly have no one else to talk to.