legacy

figurative trophies

plaques

degrees, lined along the wall.

cigarette smoke lingering - like the liquor on their breath. 

BANG

did they stand?

or did i fall? 

that is one in the same. 

silence covers me.

i can barely hear their soft sobs.

im sorry.

im sorry.

im sorry.

each word feeling like a needle.

my minds white noise draping a blanket over me. 

my mind spinning - 

what do i say?

do i offer my embrace?

my body chooses for me. 

silence. stillness.

they hurt me.

i know.

i love them. 

i know.

i hate them.

i know.

i hate me.

i know.

i can barely be heard.

too small

weak

scared

to protect who is supposed to protect me.

is this my legacy?