Wish

I think I might hate who I am. I wish I could be a girl, I wish I could be loved and love myself equally. I wish I could be unapologetically myself. I wish I were done. Not dead, but done. I wish to hibernate and wake up the person I crave to be. I wish I were higher than hunger. I wish I were better than the human nature that plagues me. I wish to be perfect, I wish to be omniscient. I need to be better than human. The human experience diseases reason. Why must we feel so, so deeply? I need to be better than that. I want to feed myself delusions and get drunk off peace. I need to go. I need to be the best and I need to be careless. If there are any Gods or Goddesses listening, watching; take pity on me, take my feelings, let me join you in your careless glory.