what i want

what i want, i always wanna have online friends, i dont even know what i want, looking for friends huh, i dont understand myself, i have no word to say about what i want and why i want, need friends, im obsessed with looking for friends, it seems to be a habit, i mean "looking for", idk what kind of friends i wanna meet, idk what should i talk with people but im still looking for friends like no reason, alone or what, maybe alone and i dont know, should i be honest, i want a weirdo or weirdos, yapper, cold, dumb,..and more, and all, just not pedo, pervert, yea i said weirdo but if you normal just still be friends, just make sure can talk with dry me, i met with some people said its okay its fine then ignored me, everything i want now like a dream never come true, influenced by a self-delusional story

ik im bad english

thats all