Working Papers, Money, and Food

I really need to get on top of getting my working papers. But I don't know how I could work with my dance schedule, my side gig thing already makes that hard enough.

My dad just got fired this morning. He's been at that job for YEARS. I'm genuinely so spooked.

I've had anxiety about money since he snapped at me about how all the subscriptions and stuff are on his and my mom's card. He wasn't mad at me, he just was irritated. I have asked for near nothing from my family since. I'm so so spooked. 

I have a couple hundred dollars in my bank account if I want anything but I need to wait. Christmas is coming up, and I have prom in may, and I never got myself my promised treat. I'm not guilty about spending my steam wallet, cause those were all gift cards, same with my switch money. Those are fine. I have 20 ish dollars on a visa gift card saved for my treat but I don't know what to get.

I might start eating even less, it'll save money. My grandmother says nothing will change while dad is unemployed, but I don't trust it. He's going to be irritable, so I'm gonna stay out of his way. He'd never hurt me, but he's snapped at me multiple times before, and he'll do it again. If I eat less we'll spend less money, and he'll be calmer. The only thing I've asked for is frozen pizzas but if I don't eat it all in one day it'll make both dinner then the next day's breakfast. And they're packs of three pizzas, so it's good. I'll get thinner too and lose weight which is a plus.

I might start going back to the library, maybe on week-ends. Just stay there and read manga or books or whatever I need to read. I think I have a fine on my card I don't want to pay rn, so I'd have to stay in building. It'd be good for me. 

I need to start going over the campaign book my homeschool group chose too, I'm not familiar with the adventure yet. I'm so stressed. I wanna go back to sleep. I wanna go back to bed and hide. I haven't eaten this morning. I should though. Luckily no dance classes.