Pure Demons - A Story

This is completely fiction and at the moment, this is not finished. This story has a trigger warning. if you struggle with an ed, please go talk to someone and get help. this story is not meant to promote eds but to show how it can affect people mentally and physically. as someone who struggles with an ed, I want to write a story about eds. I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I enjoy writing it <33

 Prologue

           My world has changed since middle school ended. My body changed, my voice, my mind, everything. The biggest thing that changed was my relationship with my childhood friend, Chloe. Just recently, Chloe has stopped interacting with me. She hasn't been texting, asking to come over, or anything like that. In middle school, we planned to go to Abraham County High School, the best school in our district. Maybe i'll see her again in school, hopefully.

Chapter One - Back to School

Dear Diary,

          First period just started by the time I'm writing this. I'm not sure if Chloe is in any of my classes but hopefully I can see her at lunch! My art teacher, Mrs. Beth is really sweet, at least to me. She said that she liked my name, Jasmine, since it reminded her of her dog with the same name. I think that's really cute. I sat in the back of the classroom with nobody near me. Sometimes I like being alone, but I wish someone would tolerate being near me for at least one semester. I don't think of myself as a likeable person. We have 5 minutes left of class. Besides writing, all I've been doing is drawing in my sketchbook. Time really moves fast. Anyway, I have to go now but I'll be back next period!!

          Okay so funny story, I got lost and I was late for class. Every hallway looks the same. I felt like I was going in circles, and I probably was. When I finally found my class, everyone was staring at me. I never felt more embarrassed. I should've just hid in the bathroom until class was over. There was only one kid who didn't stare at me: JJ. JJ was my crush in 7th grade. He was super popular in middle school. He was known for being nonchalant and dating one of the cheerleaders. Of course, I got super upset when I found that out, but if he was single, I wouldn't have a chance with him. I was the complete opposite of him socially. Nobody knew me in middle school. The only friend I had was Chloe. This time will be different. High school is going to be a fresh start for me. I took a seat next to JJ, acting like I have full confidence in what I'm doing.

          "Hey JJ! How's your relationship with Amanda doing?" I blurt out, not realizing how creepy I sound. He got off of his phone and took out his airpod, "Do I know you?". My smile dropped as I slap myself in my head, "Oh sorry! I'm Jasmine. I was in your 5th period in 7th grade, remember?". "Umm..Sure.." He put his airpod back in. My face turned red from embarrassment, laying my head on the desk, trying to hide from the world. I raise my hand, "Can I go to the bathroom?" My teacher, Mr. James nods as I run out.

          My face is so red, I feel like I'm burning. I remember my tracks so I don't get lost again as I make my way to the bathroom. I take a long look at myself in the mirror: my cheeks are red and covered in freckles, my bangs are uneven, that's what I get for cutting them myself, my double chin is very visible as I try to hide it. The only thing good about me is my eyes. My eyes are big and brown, my mom always told me about how beautiful my eyes were. I wash my face, trying to get the red away as I see someone coming in through the mirror. A girl with brown roots and blonde highlights comes in, running into the next available stall. I think nothing of this until the girl starts coughing behind the stall. I stare at the stall in concern, is she okay? Why would she go to school if she doesn't feel good, or maybe she just has a cough? I'm not really sure. I decide not to intervene, walking out the bathroom as I head back to class.

          I'm still thinking about that girl in the bathroom, I don't know why. Right now, I'm in my 3rd period. Somebody decided to sit by me. I don't know her name but she looks friendly. I don't really know how to talk to people, I was never the best at it even when I was young. I was really shy in elementary and middle school. Maybe I should try to talk to her. I tap her desk as I wave with a smile on my face. She looks over and waves back with less energy than me. "What's your name?" I asked, showing my teeth as I smiled. "My name is Isabella. What's yours?". Her smile widens, showing her buck teeth. "My name is Jasmine!". "What lunch period do you have?" Isabella questioned, holding her head on her palm. I stop gazing at her as I pull out my schedule. I follow the text with my fingers, pointing at my lunch period, "I have lunch A!" I smile. She looks at my schedule as she lets out a small giggle, "I have lunch A too! We should sit together!" We both stare at each other as we both laugh. "Yeah!! That would be amazing!". "Do you want to be friends?" She smiled as I stared at her lovingly, "Yes! We can be friends!!" She gently put her hand on mine as she laughed, I laughed back. As soon as class was over, we both made our way to the cafeteria.

          "Wait here, I need to get my other friend so you can meet her." Isabella signs me to stay as she rushes over to the other side of the cafeteria. I patiently waited as I looked around with my eyes to see if I could find Chloe. After a while, Isabella tapped me on the shoulder and returned with the same girl who I saw in the bathroom, or I think that's her. She has the brown roots and blonde highlights. "Jasmine, this is my friend Chloe! Chloe, this is my friend Jasmine!" Isabella grinned as I stare blankly at Chloe. I can't believe it's her! She looks so different than she did in middle school. Her hair got shorter and she has darker eyes, or maybe that's makeup, I'm not really sure. Not to mention the blonde highlights. I always liked her brunette hair but I think the blonde really suits her! Chloe started at me, "Hi Jasmine. You look so different than in middle school.". "I'd say the same for you Chloe! I love the new look!" I smile as she rubs her eyes. "Wow, you guys already know each other! that's so cool!!" Isabella laughed, "Jasmine do you want something to eat? If you do, me and Chloe will sit in that corner way over there." Isabella points over to the table in the far right corner of the cafeteria, away from where everyone else sits. I nod as Chloe and Isabella heads over to that table while I head over to the lunch line.

          Once I got my food, I make my way over to their table. Chloe has an apple while Isabella has nothing to eat. I feel really embarrassed eating in front of them, I almost feel better not eating. I notice Chloe staring at me then back at her apple. "Do you want this?" Chloe asked, handing me her apple, "I'm not really hungry and I don't want to waste my food." I stare at the red apple as I stare at my pepperoni pizza. I silently take the apple, eating it while avoiding eye contact with Isabella and Chloe.

          After a long day, school is finally over. I waited for my bus to come as I played my music through my headphones. On the bus, I thought about Chloe and what happened in the bathroom. Was she sick or was she doing something? I'm not really sure. I hope she's okay. After 3 stops, The bus made its way to my house as I go home.

Chapter two coming soon <33