23/9/2025

So. I think I might be confused and may actually not have a crush on [redacted] at all.

I don't like mentioning past things here but for you to understand this you should atleast have a bit of context.

10 months ago I broke up with my ex. Which I'm gonna call Joe. I loved Joe alot, but our relationship wasn't the healthiest... We were both going through a rough time, I like to believe we had a "right person, wrong time" type of relationship going on.

The thing is, I'm not that good with the moving on from your ex thing or whatever. I still, to this day, miss him deeply. I don't really want to deepen things up so I'll stop here but I think you guys can get the idea of how I feel.

Well sincerely I think I mistaked [redacted] for a crush. I'm not sure I like him. I don't think you can like two guys; I mean, you always end up loving someone more than the other. And I love Joe more than [redacted]. Sorry, I can't help it.

Plus, he told me he doesn't like guys so I'll lose either way.

Going back to the main topic, school life, my friend Lera didn't come to school today. And not much like yesterday, I was deeply bored in class. 

Oh yeah. I also learned that [redacted] goes to a music school that's quite literally, next to my apartment and that he's much less than a freak than I am (I made him do the bdsm test).

He was astonished when he saw mine. I'll leak my top 3: 

100% degradee
98% rope bunny
97% pet

This is not helping my femboy allegations. Whatever, just to be clear, this is all in a sexual sense. I don't find someone calling me names hot unless it's done in a sexual manner.

Thank you for reading,

 No blog tomorrow! No school.