A Glimpse Into My Soul -EP- "Do You See Me?"

We voluntary pick and choose what part of ourselves we reveal to the world

Those who know my name, only know what they do

But in here, with each page, I present all that I am to you 

In here, the curtains are lifted and I stand fully bare in between the lines

With each word and behind each letter, I unravel, leaving you aware of me 

Leaving a mark of my presence in this world, that way, when my lines end and God finally closes my book, if I would fail to find someone to see all of me and still hold me. 

Many would do so, even without seeing my face or having heard my voice. It doesn't matter if I am unable to find a set of warm hands to turn to when mine are cold or remember who I was because there will always be some part of me, here on earth. 

Thank you for picking me up, caressing my pages and giving your time to the sentences

I thank you for holding me for as long as you did, even if you had never opened me up, if it had only been a second 

I thank you but I am sorry to leave your hands heavy with me

Once upon a time,

I call and I plead, everything is done but even so, please just please give me your time, I've given this world all I had, never will I expect anything else, I'll never ask and I'll never whine but as I lived on, I grew curious, wanting, needing.

How utterly humiliating of me to act so so human. The need to be, to have is always so much stronger, to be seen, it all but disgusts me. How dare I want.

How dare I need

How dare I crave to be seen if I can't even bare my own reflection?

Can you see it?

Can you see me crawl and cry?

Can you see me reach up and fall? again and again? 

Do you see me succumbing into a sea of dark? Would you look? Would you turn away? oh how I would beg you don't. Do you see me on my knees? see me pray, see me sin. See me swallow the trash they leave in my garden, oh so gratefully.

Look at her, look at me. I'll force you to, then beg forgiveness. I don't mind you toss me onto another, just look at me and hold me, anyone would do, just don't leave me with myself. 

Do you see her?

Do you see me.