Journaling (probably h*gh) #2

It's a new day, so it's time for a new journal! 

Trigger warning for:

human domestication guide (HDG), agre regression, abandonment issues, war, drugs, eating disorders/disordered eating behaviors, autism, childhood trauma, 

Oh man, I feel so bad for Lizzie.... (Little Left to Give)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/55626502/chapters/142176658#workskin

Poor baby, her and Delilah had better be okay eventually or I'm going to be so sad 🥺🥺🥺

I've decided to re-number the journals so that one number equals one day, so this is #2 now, and then I need to go change #2 into #1

Task complete! Now, back to my questions from last night, actually! 

QUEST-IONS:

Why are portion sizes so small? 

Most popular/common drinks by country

Where does the stereotype that autistic people are obsessed with trains come from? 

RESULTS:

Fukkk I gotta go eat something so that I can take my meds because it's already 10:30 and I'm out of my stomach medication. 

I also need to take one of the chocolate truffles off of my diet tracker app (Lose It!) because I didn't eat it last night around 11:30-ish.

I already remembered to do it! :D 

I was under by 320-380 something, so my current projected date to reach my goal of 125 lbs is... (Drumroll please 🥁) 136 days from now, so early February of 2026. I got results for February 3rd, 5th, and 6th so... It's one of those. Probably.  Ughhhh that's 4 whole months and like, 2/3-3/4-ish of 2 partial ones!!! 😭😭😭 That's so far away!!! But at the same time, I really need to work on my self discipline, delayed gratification, and long-term planning and stuff like that. Also now that the Renaissance Festival is over and done with, I have to especially not spend money on little treats and trinkets because I need to save for when I go to ////////// to visit L-----, because we're going to go to the huge rummage sale thing and probably also random yard/garage sales. 

I need to put going to visit L----- and the specific event thing both on my calendar, probably NOW before I forget. And double check that I put in my time off request for work.

I made a new blog I'm going to pin called "Reminders/To Do List." 

Rice and broccoli and carrots was not very good, I only had like 1/4 of it. But I had protein choccy milk :D

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Mannnnnnn I just wanna read HDG but there are like, a million more productive things I could be doing rn. It is... uhhhh, 4:30-ish.

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Update, it's 9:30 now! It does nottttt feel like it's only been 4 hours, I would have sworn its been way longer. Alex and I are watching the movie Interstellar rn.

Man why do I kinda hardcore, highkey relate to Murph from Interstellar-

Idk I guess it's because I remember being a little girl and being scared of something irrational like ghosts too, and we both did/are experiencing childhood trauma lowkey lmaoo, just from totally completely different sources

TOM FROM INTERSTELLAR IS TIMOTHEE CHALAMET, (or however you fuckin spell it;) sidenote- timothy spelled "timothee" is kind of fucking stupid and ugly, I know its French or whatever, but I don't care bc its still bad

and no I will not take constructive critisism, this is fact and law by my declaration

Alex said, "FUCK FRENCH PPL," and "except gojira"

Which I can agree with enough

and then I said, "i love not taking myself seriously lmao, it keeps me humble without being self depriciating/putting myself down"

okay im going to stop talking about myself in the third person now, adding all those unnecessary quotation marks and commas was really annoying

Man I just cracked my whole body so much and I'm about to continue stretching, yippee!!!

oops/uh-oh, i realized that ngl i havent been paying attention enough to actually have absorbed what happened/understand what's happening rn