Journaling (probably h*gh) #1b

I don't think it saved the first time

It did save the first time, but I deleted the first one because I'd already formatted this one and added to it 

Anyways

Trigger warning for 

familial abuse, divorce, death, sex, incest(?), eating disorders/disordered eating behavior, Human Domestication Guide (HDG), 

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Man, the Very Important People episode about Vic's ex-step grandmother is kinda crazy 

Because I have two grandmother's on my mom's side, because my grandfather got divorced and remarried sometime before I can remember. So I was very young or not even born, probably, because I think my mom said her parents got divorced when she was, like, 19 at most? After her 2 years younger brother, my uncle C----, graduated from high school. 

So what I'm saying is, my grandma L---- is technically my step-grandmother, but I didn't *know* know for a long time. 

And I didn't think about it until now-ish, that I'm older. 

Crazy

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FUCK I JUSR WROTE SO MUCH STUFF AND DIDN'T SAVE JT!!!! 😭😭😭

ANYWAYS, I GUESS,,, 

I was gonna say I forgot how funny the part of the Very Important People episode is where "Nana" reads a passage from her book that she wrote and it's like, erotica about Nana and Vic's grandfather where they're very explicitly having sex or fuckin, something, idek lmaoo.

Okay me, now MAKE SURE YOU SAVE IT THIS TIME!!! 😭😭😭

I also changed the title, yay "productivity" 🙂

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OH 

The thing I was yelling about (/pos) before was about how funny the scene with Nana and her book is. I hope the book that they gave her is blank and she's just fucking making that shit up on the spot. That would be PEAK to me.

Oh my God the ominous ass song at the end of minute 18??? I should make that my ringtone because that'll mildly strike a fear response in me lmao.

I forgot to save again like a dumbass 😭😭😭 It's fine though because only wrote like two sentences instead of a whole paragraph 

Anyways what I did was add to the trigger warning tags and say that it's great that I barely used any of my calorie allotment today, because now I can "binge" on these 820-840 calories worth of nuts and chocolate truffles, and still be under by 200-400 calories. It's not that hard to keep under 1500 when I'm alone, which is important for when I'm not so that I can be less mindful when I'm being social. No matter what I'm going to try to stick to one portion size though.

...I know I googled stuff about why portion sizes are the size that they are before, but now I'm wondering what the most popular/common drinks are by country? Brb, gotta check on that. Maybe hit the pen, watch a little more Dropout, eat some some more food, maybe fall asleep by accident... But I'm sure there's a possibility I'll be back with results eventually lmao. Semi-related question, where does the stereotype that autistic people are obsessed with trains come from? 

QUEST-IONS:

Why are portion sizes so small? 

Most popular/common drinks by country

Where does the stereotype that autistic people are obsessed with trains come from? 

RESULTS:

OH MY GOD, AND THEN NANA EATS VICS NAIL?!? I FORGOT ABOUT THAT PART 😭😭😭

Okay so I hit the pen a little and watched a little Dropout. The app is honestly quite buggy/not user friendly/has a really bad UI and it bothers me soooooo much. 

More pen, food, and more Dropout are in order.

Tata for now

---- HDG & MAYBE SEX? TW HERE ----

Man, a CRAZY crossover would be a HDGxDropout fic about an Affini and the French dolls from Very Important People, "Zonton de la Doll" and "Marionette Conqui"