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just went to the mall with this boy i think is cute, but i couldnt ever get with him because hes got his own little thing..

if he didnt he'd surely be mine, and at this point, i just need someone to be there for me more often then not, and since my last.. relationship.. ive been trying to replace the thought with him. 

i feel bad for wanting him to go everywhere with me, but i just need a friend to walk around with me sometimes.. sometimes i just want someone to hang out with because my 'friends' will always find a reason to ditch me.

it sucks to realise that your own friends dont even want to do stuff with you.

but like i said, i just really want this boy to be my #1 even if its just platonically. i find him super sweet, and we even went to see a movie after we had went to the mall. 

i couldnt tell you, but im sure i was giggling and blushing like an idiot, and i probobly played it off as "its hot in here sorry".

ive wanted to be close with him for 2 years now, and im only just now making progress. i suck at this.

if someone would like to be my friend here so ive got company before i go to sleep, please add me. i dont respond very often but when i do i promise a convo. if it comes down to it, i have discord, and you can add me there.