A closet closed from within

Never had I liked anyone before

all the girls & boys wouldn't get near or close

no matter the year, I was the weirdo encore

with an uncomfortable demeanor from head to toes.

I closed myself in a world of lies

where people would never see my heart overt

where I was "fine" with an unwinnable prize, 

where my broken heart would always remain innert.

The darkness engulfed my life, fruit of my attempts to strangle it

but even in my lowest hours a light kept shining from within

a desperate hope that surrender not a bit

that knew that someday, love would come in.

I learned then, that one can't live by others love

that to love oneself is the most crucial thing there is

for it transforms the dark into a gray-winged dove

 & replaces the silence for music never thought of.

So to whoever may be reading this, & may be needing it

just know your being is not wrong

Happy days will be there again

they've always been deep down in our veins, just wait.