swimming/vulnerable things

I love the idea of swimming despite almost drowning when I was 9 due to a neglectful mother. part of me fears water but a lot of me still loves it and the ocean, I love swimming because of how peaceful it is especially if u have someone to swim with like a sibling or best friend it's such a vulnerable bonding thing. I love the idea of swimming with someone and it makes me relaxed. I just love vulnerable things like I love the idea of being injured like breaking ur leg and having a leg cast? god forbid I would never want to go through the pain of breaking my bones but I can't say I wouldn't enjoy others caring for me. realistically no one would care since I have no one in my life.

but I imagine if I had like a sister or a bestfriend caring for me and stuff going to stores together and them making sure I don't fall and stuff etc. keeping me at home making sure i relax, watching shows together and pampering me, it's so vulnerable and sweet I love it. I daydream about this often when maladaptive daydreaming