and now?

Hello guys, third time already lol, so about that blog I was talking about our situation, I talked to her today and it was really weird, I just didn't know what to do and I had forgotten what I had been thinking all morning, my heart almost jumped out of my mouth, but anyway I felt horrible for having forgotten and created that climate, so I asked if I could write and she agreed, I wrote and everything went well, but I'm afraid I'll forget and start making things fast again, I want to do everything right this time but sometimes, I miss her and I feel like sending a message, sometimes I'm like that because I cling to memories a lot of times, I was doing some things listening to It Almmost Worked by TV Girl and I simply cried because I remembered how happy I was in those days, so I'm a little confused about it. I don't know if she really wants to talk to me again or if we just made up, because I also don't know how to talk properly, it's weird Because, as I said, I like to tell people things I like, so I don't know if I should just chatter a lot and take the cold shoulder like: cool, or wait for her to come talk to me (which is also bad), but that feeling sometimes goes away because now I'm occupying my mind with things I like, but it doesn't stop that feeling from knocking on the door sometimes...

I swear this is the last blog for today :p