There's gotta be a name for this, I'm just at a loss

Alternatively, let's explore how humans work cause damn if we're not all weird as hell.

I am an adult. I have a job. I am self-sufficient. Let's get that out of the way first.

I like the thought of having friend in the "cyberspace acquaintances" sort of way. I enjoy people being in their own houses in their own cities and occasionally we all exist in a mutual online space, do our little typey-typeys, and then we go our separate ways.

 
That's not to say I don't like having actual IRL friends, because I do. But I definitely enjoy having separate spaces. Now maybe this is partially a reflection of my current state because I do enjoy my alone time and my quiet at-home space. I'm not a big 'go out and do things' kinda person, mostly because of the job and the chronic illness. Those two things take up a fair amount of my time but also I've never really been a super social person. When I was younger it was school that really filled my social needs but now it's work, though I do like the people I work with so it's definitely not something I see as a chore. But at the end of the day I do prefer being able to exist in a space (I guess now it's discord mostly, but back in the early days of my internet time it was chatrooms) where others exist in a space but then we leave and go about our business separate from everyone else. I don't keep Discord on my phone, that is now what brain has categorized as Big Screen Computer Activity.

I feel like I'm being rambly and unclear, so please bear with me. Two migraines yesterday has left me in a sort of weird doofus haze that has be going a million miles at once to nowhere. Incredibly scattered and slow for no earthly reason than to inconvenience me, probably.

I think this was just a roundabout way to say that I miss when internet was a place you could go and exist and when you left, internet didn't come with you. I know it's a whole nostalgia thing, maybe some Bartmoss fella will come and fix-fuck it all and we'll end up going on to the next great awful stage of Cyberspace Interactions. 

It's part of why I like Steam so much and why I always liked adding people on Xbox. It's not because I want to play with them necessarily, it's just that I enjoy seeing what people are doing. Seeing people going about their lives is cool to me.