theres no will to do anything

i find that i never have energy to do anything when i have free time, like i always have hella people hit my phone but i never have the energy to even write out a response to them, not even dry shit either. like i just dont have the will or the energy to even type fuckin buttons on my phone unless its some shit like this on a website where no1 knows me. i feel that im losing precious friendships and it so hard to see that unravel infront of me and im very well capible of being able to mend and fix things but i just cant be fucked. i dont think its a lazy thing but its just way to much energy and time to respond to the mountian on people tryna hit me up and its just overwhelming, like ill have to spend like 30-40 mins responding to everyone basically saying the same shit of like "oh sorry i havent responded 2 u in like 3 months my bad i didnt get the notif ahahah lol" and then before im done with all that people reply back and its just a continuous build up of things i have to respond to, like i see it as more of a chore to keep these friendships going now, but i dont wanna lose these people yk? but i cant keep going on apologising for ignoring everyone, theyll get sick of the same old story one day.

i hope this doesnt seem like im complaining about having so many friends and oh no thats such a horrible thing cause im very grateful i have these close connections with everyone and i understand not many people are as fortunate as me... but honestly ive never felt more alone in my life, with so many people around me i feel like no one really gets me, like my girlfriend gets me the best obvi but i feel like i cant even convey myself to her properly, like words cant describe how i feel at times, and the ones i do just,,, undermine or simplify how i feel.