I don't know what spurred it on, but I realized it's been quite a while since I checked this place, or posted much...

I think I'm just bad at keeping these kinds of things up to date lolll, i've always mainly used social media accounts for sharing my random drawings

it's kind of funny seeing those old entries where i was talking about how stressed i was with school, cause now i know how that turned out oopsss (spoilers: undiagnosed ADHD and poor time management caused everything to collapse around me and i spent a year catching back up)

Anyway, I'm doing a lot better now! Although I have a lot of early mornings this term, which has been an adjustment T_T

Uhhhh what to actually write about here...... It's my birthday in a few days! That's kind of cool!

Oh, also, my latest fixation has been on the venture bros, which was pretty unexpected loll. I first watched it back in May - June-ish I want to say? Annnd I ended up really liking it, rewatched it all with some friends, and have been making wayyy too much art of one of the characters. Well, mainly my explorations of a trans reading of the character... I'm actually attempting to write a whole deep-dive/essay type thing into my thoughts about it, so maybe I'll share that here when I make it? lol

I guess I can share some art stuff too while I'm at it?

Copy of a Copy

This was my first of the higher-effort Dean Venture pieces, which was mainly thinking about the whole clone thing... Which is actually an imagery my brain returns to a lot lol

The Monarch Dies 2025 (real not fake)

okay so this one was my attempt at turning a roleplay scene into a comic, from memory, a little while after it actually happened. I can't decide if it does a good job of that or not but oh well, it was interesting to experiment with a comic format

"That's funny. Dean is a Venture Brother, a future super scientist... And you're just a dirty old imposter."

okay i'm actually proud of this piece, like it's a redraw of a Perfect Blue shot but i just really like how it turned out!! I'm using a cropped version of it as my discord icon, actually

Head Turn Animation

Yeahh, you can tell this is a cataclysmic event if im straight-up trying to animate because of it xD

This is also the point where you can seriously see the Venture Bros artsyle taking over mine like a symbiote, although it's a more obvious progression in all my little doodles which i can't possibly squeeze all of them in here sadly (but they are on my tumblr if you really wanna see lolll)

TOLD YOU THE CLONE THING COMES BACK

Yeah, this one is more of a quick doodle compared to the prior ones i shared, but i thought it was worth showing the progression yet repetition of themes and ideas

"You're not supposed to have that box. None of us have a box like that."

This one is a little near and dear to me despite not being very polished or anything, because i made it after reading this tumblr post and finding the analogy resonating with me for some reason

So even though it's dawn, it's also me in spirit too if that makes any sense? i suppose a lot of this art is a reflection of me in a way, exploring myself through a character that i related to for better or worse....

Plus the mental image of finding your future, happier self in a box is very clone-adjacent as well oopss

Girl why are you so egg

This is a super recent one, I made it to illustrate her progression in starting to explore + accept her identity in the context of that same roleplay from the comic where the monarch gets pushed off the roof. I kinda want to draw some little comic-y things about that, too, but idk lol

Sometimes i get the impression that i am being very cringe about this but then i remember that idgaf about being cringe or not soooooo too bad

Anywayyyy that's a speedrun-type look at my latest fixation :3

I might update here more often as almost like a casual journal-style thing? It could be a nice way to think about, like, life? Idk lol, i've never been good at getting into journaling, but i think there's something interesting about the idea...

Although this might be a little different because it's still public, it's not the same privacy as a diary or journal that only i would ever read (and i do have one of those but i never remember to write in it ooppsss)

point being, idk what I'll write about or anything like that, but it could be nice as something to look back on in the future, or just for people to get a peek into my brain?

we'll see, i've probably rambled on enough at this point whoops

if you actually read all of this, uh, thanks! see you when i see you :]