weekly blog

ok so this week was lowkey just not it like honestly i really don't know what was happening but i was in a bad place mentally and stuff like that and i was lowkey kinda going insane because idk i was just tired and then my pe coach was kinda rude to me i don't have friends in my pe class and she was like rude because i couldn't find a group ig??

well for more context on that basically we had to get into groups and i sat with 2 people and then they told the pe coach that they wanted to have one of their friends that was absent on their team and then my coach asked me if i was in their team already so i said no because they wanted someone else and then my coach was like "okay well go find a partner" but in a rude tone of voice or at least a tone of voice that i perceived as rude and i already felt like dying because i was having cramps and bleeding a gallon of blood per second (not rlly but yk) so i almost started crying but i didn't want to start crying because that would lowkey be kind of embarrassing but idk maybe i was in the wrong somehow ?? who knows

and then when i got home i cried about that and then i cried because i haven't made any friends and i was thinking that i would never make a single friend and i would just be a loser in all my classes and ik i said at the beginning of the year that i didn't care if i didn't have friends in my classes but actually it turns out i do care because now i constantly feel alienated and excluded from everyone else 

but then on friday it rained at school and maybe my shoes felt like sponges the whole day and i got completely poured on on the way to class but i love it when it rains during school because it just feels more calm and peaceful and that made me happy and i also think i actually made a couple friends in my french class 

this weekend was pretty good too on saturday i got a pedicure and then i bought some sandals because i don't have cute sandals for like the pool and beach and stuff in the future when i go to the pool and beach and today i missed a random person's wedding because of a burger king drive thru but that's kind of a long story (not really) so i won't elaborate on that too much

but anyways here are some photos that i took this week and it's actually literally just outfits i wore this week but who cares: