On my Estonian Heritage, and lack of national identity.

I'm Estonian. My family is Estonian. I have an Estonian ID card. I have an Estonian Passport. I try to visit as much as possible. I'm Estonian. I think?

I live in the UK. I grew up in the UK. I have no Estonian Friends. I do not speak Estonian, despite numerous attempts to learn the language. The last annual Estonian meetup near our family has moved to the North of the UK, too far for us to visit.

I feel so odd in relation to my heritage. Like, I'm an imposter? A British kid sneaking her way into Estonian Spaces. Except, I'm 100% Estonian. Technically, I'm not lying to anybody! But when we have no connection outside of blood, what does it matter? I can't read any Estonian posts, I can barely talk with my grandparents. It's just odd.

Does anybody else hold a similar struggle with national identity? I feel like I'm not Estonian enough in Culture to call myself Estonian, but I don't belong to the UK either because of my actual family history. I'm in some limbo, the type of thing when you land in a new country, but you're not through security, so legally you're not in any country. I struggle to claim any country as where I belong.

It's just been on my mind. One of those things. If anybody has any solace or understanding here, I'd deeply appreciate commenting to talk further. Thank you for reading.