Why World War II fascinates me so much

I always had found an interest in World War II, I grew up watching Horrible Histories and Narnia and the fashion I always had liked. The music as well, for example The Andrews Sisters. I always wanted books about stories of World War II, I always rewatched movies that had something to do with it. I wasn't much of a collector, but I did enjoy learning about the subjects. One of my favourite museums near to my home, The Spoorweg Museum has trains used in World War II and beyond. But I remember the day a new "thing" arrived to the museum for people to look at, those cattle railroad trains they used during the holocaust, you could and probably still can go inside. They made it so there was this voice over in the car that spoke on how it felt to be inside, I remember the feeling I had when I went inside the first time, I immediately left because I felt Ill and terrified. I visited the museum often, so when I visited the museum again, I tried to enter it and I forced myself to stay. I almost wanted to boke. It was horrifible. The other reason I liked that museum so much, was because my grandfather designed some of the trains there, It's an odd connection. One of the benches they have at the museum has a gold statue of an old lady waiting for her train, the museum does a great job of having a certain atmosphere and it gave me a bit of an obsession with old trains (I already know I'm autistic, don't worry).

At school we'd of course learn about world war II, It was the Netherlands so we would watch "13 jaar in de oorlog". I find myself rewatching it at least once a year by myself. It always fascinated me, and I just enjoyed learning and relearning things about world war II. To think the cruelty people faced, horrified me and only because the ones in power yearned for more than they deserved. People had to do what they could to survive, I cannot be mad at women getting close to German soldiers when they were probably desperate to stay alive. But people yearned for revenge, desperately. They humiliated these women, but they didn't give the men enough of humilation, in my opinion. People did so many things without thinking, followed without knowing. And then over 50 to 85 million people died. And now we have ridiculous people nowadays saying abortion is worse than the holocaust (abortion is a human health right, you monsters). My deepest fear is being in another world war, I don't want to live to see a loved one die, I don't want to live to see someone be killed infront of me. Our world is dying, and all the people in power care about is money. Nobody thinks enough about what Greta Thunberg has said before, people who treat her as a joke are the real problem. People care so much about fame, looks, money and their own well being but not the people who have to SUFFER for it. 

We evolved, yet we are still the dumbest creatures known. I spit on the cruel, I will bite back because nobody gives enough of a fuck. Having conversations with people my age (14) is like talking to a wall, they stubbornly keep buying from Shein or Temu, they buy books influencing abusive relationships, they get influenced so quickly and they don't think for themselves! This is the future you are helping destroy because you can't think clearly!

I care about history, I have always been fascinated with world war II. Because at this rate, we're repeating what once was. We said we never want this to happen again yet we easily vote for people who will make others suffer for their own benefit. We all come from a family of immigrants, we all come from multiple places in the world, everything is always connected yet we still choose ARROGANCE and MONEY and POWER. You CHOOSE to be selfish.