𝑷𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒆𝒕𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒑𝒉𝒐𝒔𝒊𝒔

I messed it all up

I don’t know what I did wrong

But this was somehow my fault

Somehow this was my fault

Oh… Why can’t I do anything right?

No matter how many times I try

It seems with myself I lose the fight

What is wrong with me? What is wrong with myself?

I despise myself, I undo everything alright

Familial ties I undo alright

I’m a disgusting parasite

But tonight… will I be something different?

Ohhh… Will you let me wear a mask

Cover me all up in pretty little makeup

I want to put it all on to hide what’s beneath

I want to disguise myself until I can change the real me

I want to make believe into something that can really be

Change the old me

Make this mold and my old self can finally be free

Let it decompose

And let this new form

Be my new identity

Don’t let this be deluded

Please believe in something I’ve been trying to push forward

To be alluded

This is the real me now

I’ve what you wanted me to finally be

I’m something you finally want to see

I don’t damage the flowers anymore

Can I finally

Be accepted into the family

Can I be forgiven

Undo my punishments?