"i saw the tv glow, and it changed me" why i am who i am, why i am trans, poly, bi

i was 9 when my tv glowed. it was a mix of blue, white pink. i didnt know what it ment. i wanted to turn it off. but i couldnt bring my self to do it. i was always told "your a girl." or "girls cant do much" and i believed it. seeing my brothers be free, as i am confined. i hated it, envyed, cryed about it. i shut off my tv at 10, struggling to know who i am i couldnt stand at the thought of it being there. i knew i was no boy, i knew i couldnt be one either. i struggled that year, being bullied for being masculine, being bullied for being myself. i would tend to not look at my self, i would tend to not sleep. at 12 i turned my tv on again. it changed alot. there wasnt only blue, white, and pink. but blue, purple, pink, and blue, red and black with some yellow. i  thought to myself. "this is who i am." and i felt that way too. finally, at 13. no longer sad, no longer stuck, i may be private, but i am free. i am oliver, i am the boy who lived as a girl their whole life. I AM ME! and nothing will ever change that.

happy transeversary, ME! 

be what makes you happy, even if its weird or stupid. because its you. it takes time.