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Im not talking about frustrated that you want something now, though I’m more than happy to hear. I’m talking something heavy to carry, or something you cant casually bring up in person because either your trying to forget it or cant bring it up without ruining the mood but it makes you feel alone because you want to be seen or known
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s0nd3r
My inability to communicate is something I dislike about myself. The more and more I get closer to someone, the less I communicate. It's because whenever I do about something I don't like about them, I get embarrassed because it looks like I'm making everything dramatic. I don't like to be a person that complains, I want to be a person that accepts. Not only that, but I want to be better than myself. I want to accept people for their flaws and for their good traits. By not communicating, I think I am building a tolerance. Which I do, but in the mean time, I don't communicate unless someone tells me to be completely honest to them, which is a start.
People look up to me because I'm always there for them. That's what I want people to see in me. I hold myself back from being vulnerable, because I'm scared to. Were I to show how vulnerable I am, they wouldn't reach out to me because I'm not "strong" anymore. I cannot accept comfort if someone sees me like that. I have kept myself in a loop of holding it in because nobody will take care of me. "That's just the way it is."
But I don't want to make a big deal out of it anymore, I know people aren't obliged to take care of every single thing I do. But I can rarely tell anyone from time to time as a quick "let out" moment in real life.
I agree, and it takes a lot of bravery admitting that some people just blame it all to others and sit in misery. I think your very close to your progress and just comes down to saying even when your scared. I saw this online “if you want to know if you can trust a person you have to give them the opportunity to break it”.
And, if you end up being closer it feels a huge relief, if not its comes down to accepting their not your people. Real friends or anyone that likes you wont judge you for how you feel or sometimes just sit you maybe they dont know what to say or what to listen fully. End of the day i think your judging yourself harder more than anyone and thats reasonable the unknown is scary or maybe you had a bad experience.
I don’t anyone or many gets over things we have emotional challenges and it just come down to how we handle or let our feelings control us.
Take your time, and once again admitting and sharing that is far greater step your quite literally at the edge
But blurting it out, (ofc i recommond the right time and place like maybe not a baby shower or many people around if its a sensitive or vulnerable topic you dont want everyone hearing) you get the jizz.
Rock on bro. I still do that and yk even my own family this year is quite literally the most I opened up and never vented to my parents. It be like that
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