16 and senseless

I'm about a week into being sixteen, and I've got nothing. 

I don't even have my permit. I practiced in a parking lot once and didn't even use the gas pedal...kind of embarrassing. My grades are kind of slipping. I don't understand anything in math while everyone else does, same with chemistry, history, I guess everything. I used to be so smart! Sure. I am taking advanced classes, but still, I can't seem to wrap my head around anything! Like just today we had a history test, our first of the year, and all my smart friends said it was hard. I didn't think it was that hard though, so that's probably my sign I got everything wrong. 

I don't have a job (well, I tutored my neighbors kid last year, but I don't know if that's gonna happen again this year), Never had a real boyfriend, and getting dumber by the day. (hopefully this isn't true though) 

I don't really know if anything's really supposed to change after your birthday, but i feel nearly the exact same. only change is that I'm older and behind. 

Sincerely, Sandra.