I can't speak my mind anymore

It feels like I can't say what I want to say and be who I want to be anymore. With new ledguslation in AMerica and how things are going, I feel like I have no autonamy anymore.

SOmetimes I wish nuclear war would just start and everything would be over with, or the sun could explode sooner than anticipated. It just seems so pointless to live now.

I have no money, no job, no food, and I can't find any safe area to be in. It's not like I ahve the money to just move somewhere else. I might literally have to live with my grandfather again if I can't pay off my rent this month.

I'm just so tired of capitalism and everthing being too expensive. I literally bought groceries from the storre yesterday and it came to 50 dollars for less than ten items. ANd I'm buying cheap, I buying off brand, I'm buying discount meat. I'm trying to save money but it's just s hard.

I don't knwo what to do anymore.