Vent song I wrote [TW: Suicide]

Before I’m Gone

Lyrics:

I hurt you, I know it

I’m known for crushing hearts

I’m a shadow, I’m a tombstone

I’m gonna break free

I love my home and family

But life out there is danger to me

And all I wish to do is make it better

But oh, I fail and fail and fail

I weep, I scream, and then I wail

At the thought of losing you too

Oh, I’m a heartbreak, I’m a mistake 

I’m a reckless rock n roll star

I need a big hug before I’m gone

Oh, this feeling, it ain’t healing

I’m a shadow, I’m a demon 

Come give me one last call before I’m gone

Before I’m gone

Because at the end of countdown, I disappear

Violent waters yank me near

Drifting off and suffocating, oh my

Why, why can’t I make it right

Oh, why did they produce me?

Should’ve stayed dead, should’ve been a stillborn

Shouldn’t have gotten surgeries

Like the others, oh let me go

I’ll be gone, I’ll be gone

Oh, I’m a heartbreak, I’m a mistake

I’m a reckless rock n roll star

I need to kiss them goodbye before I’m gone

Oh, this feeling, it ain’t healing

I’m a shadow, I’m a demon

Come watch me demolish before I’m gone

Before I’m gone

I deserve nothing more than hate

Because they all walked away

Nothing bad like being alone

Betrayed, in the cold

I miss the good old days

I wanna turn it back

But I know it can’t come true

This nightmare will always last 

Ah, I’m a heartbreak, I’m a mistake

I’m a reckless rock n roll star

Shove your weapon straight through me, oh, before I’m gone

Oh, this feeling, it ain’t healing

I’m a shadow, I’m a demon

Wipe every memory of me before I’m gone

Before I’m gone

So long, so long

Before I’m gone

Everything is wrong