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so...where yall at :/...i know i know it's been a while since i did a uni blog please dont yell at me (not there are any comments yelling at me ☹, please please please comment ☹, i know yall are reading this >:T) but guys when i tell you it's been month already in uni!! A WOOP jumpscare....but so far its been really...lets say diffrent. :) this sem i have two math courses, a programming course(ewww) and a logic/discrete math course, and you maybe like 60 what the fuck why would you do that. yeah why the fuck would i do that when i suck at all those topics...it's cause i ran out of gen eds to do so any other course technally would be not needed for my degree (i wanted to do a course for a minor but there was no space in the course i wanted a with good professor so i didnt want to risk it :'( ) here's how it's been so far: 

logic/discrete math course aka formal methods and models: girl what the fuck, first of all this class is 3 fucking hours 3 CONSECUTIVE FUCKING HOURS WITH OVER 300 STUDENT, and on top of that this professor lit rally count our five minute break (which im pretty sure is required for 3 hour classes cause i doubt he gives it cause he wants to) to the FUCKIGN SECOUND now why would i care about time when this class doesnt even take attendance well it's cause THERE IS NO FUCKING SLIDES TO READ OFF OF IF I DONT PAY ATTENTION!! he told us on the first day of class that if we dont take notes while he speaks then you wont understand anything cause the only thing he posts are the "notes" he writes in the lecture and if you use any formals or theorems from the interent then you cant use it until you prove it using the formulas given in class(ITS A FUCKING CYCLE) mind you he speaks like 90 mph so its incredably difficult to write everyithing all at once...this is all done at 4:30 to 7 :''( 

math class part 1 aka stats: lowkey my opps are in this class and it sucks because i have be cordial with them(thats a big word for elmo) but this class is alright i just wish it wasnt attendance mandatory :(

math class part 2 aka linear algebra: what is going on?? idk divas/divos/divtheys i litrally cried over the process of the online exam for this one because it was so fucking complicated liek you lit rally had to solve a fuck ass riddle to even get to the problems and then solve them during a limited time....on top of that i am almost guaranteed a lower score in an online class so it just gets worser i fear BUT on the bright side i was able to take the quizzes in person and i made friends with people also suffering there..the friends i made have to show up every other week to give a verbal test on calc 3 TT_TT like damn i thought i had it bad (that was not an invitation to make it worse, knock on wood)

programming. : I have a programming assignment immediately after school starts. Then I have another programming assignment after the first one is done. The second programming assignments' time frame is two weeks. I have 5 classes to write. It's due in tomorrow. 

Overall tho I have been doing well regarding grades i guess but like idk idk it alot of work and ive been getting so stressed that i'm having physical symptoms its actually crazy...im going to go back to my work now but if i sound crazy or there are mistakes please dont mind im drinking coffee at 1:12 am <3 

luv,

6006 xoxo