What in the sweetly everloving fuck?

Jesus H. Christ on a pogo stick, what is going on in the USA??? (I mean, what's going on is exactly what they wanted to happen, but WHAT THE FUCK man?)

I had been getting numb to the news -- I had even been in the middle of writing a post about it last night-- but this stupid shit just ramped up my anxiety again. Glad I'm not completely dead inside yet. All I want to do is gather my family up like a mother hen or something. Now I'm regretting all the plans I started in January that I let fall by the wayside, because I could be done with them, or at least in the process of getting them done. I could have my tubal ligation and my gun permit. I could have my freezer and canning jars.

I've really got to dampen down the Ancestral Panic that's woken up in my brain. I have women screaming at me from generations past to keep the family safe and fed by any means necessary, and it's so hard to not give in and start Prepping. But keeping people safe means keeping some sense of normalcy, so I have to hold on.

It doesn't help that my partner is having an interview with Social Security again --and I'm pretty sure he's already had one within the last 12 months-- so we're really worried he's going to lose his disability, or get it severely cut. He has Cerebral Palsy FFS, It's not going to just go away, you pencil-pushing fuckknuckles. And while he can work, it is really damaging to his body even though it's only part time. We're long term but call each other husband and wife even though we're not married. We claim each other as roommates, not partners, but if they get fuckin' nosey enough they can simply claim "close enough!" and cut him even though we split expenses.

AAAARGH!!!

fuck.

FUCK!!