another poemmm

poem is by me, written on august 21st. it's one of my favorites so far 

do you still grieve?

even though it is now a problem that solved itself

i do. i think back to those nights 

i did everything in my power to lose hope

i loved the memories but i didn't want to

i wanted to forget, just for a little while.

but i never did. how could i

you make me feel complete. you're my peace.

this was the worst summer of my life

you saved me

i always get emotional about you.

thinking about our first time meeting makes me unable to sleep from excitement.

thinking about how i treated you makes me cry.

and if i could remember your face, it'd make me smile.

there's so much i could do, yet i don't do anything

im lazy and tired, especially when i sleep a lot.

i said i wanted to die today but i didn't mean it

i don't wanna be a responsibility to anyone. 

especially not to be people i love most

im sorry i burdened you with my dependency.

please burden me back so i can make it

fair.