Situationship

!I started writing this Monday night then fell asleep so I’m finishing and posting it now!

Oh my god that was so awkward. I invited over my bsf for the first time since our friendship became more of a situationship and we did literally nothing. And not even in the normal calm comfortable way. She was waiting for me to make a move but I didn’t know if my parents were awake so I didn’t. It was also going on 9 when she came over and I was somehow already tired. I thought she was going to do diamond art with me because that’s what I asked if she wanted to come over and do but she just laid on me. I’m too fucking awkward for this and she knows it. We’ve talked about how I like physical touch I just literally don’t know how to handle it because I haven’t even been hugged by anyone but her in years. I want to figure it out but I was too tired to have anything to say and I was just silently working on my diamond art to keep myself awake because it’s a school night so she couldn’t stay over. 

Ok yeah update (wrote this part Tuesday night lol)  I was crashing out last night, and yeah it was awkward as hell, but it was also adorable. I kept saying I was tired and didn’t know what to say and she kept calling me nonchalant. Like yeah bestie so nonchalant when we keep texting about wanting to make out. So chill so casual. But yeah I love her and we’re gonna hang out on Saturday. I have no idea what yet, but hopefully something out of the house so we don’t have to worry about my parents. I don’t care if they know and she doesn’t care if they know, but it’s awkward because I haven’t dated anyone since middle school. Plus I need to figure out how to tell them to but chill and not talk about it because her family doesn’t even know she’s gay yet. I’ve told her a million times she never has to come out to them if she doesn’t want to, but she insists that she will eventually. I think she wants to, but I know her parents won’t be happy about it and I’m worried for her. They aren’t homophobic in the sense that they hate gay people, I’ve met them before and whatnot, but they don’t want her to be gay. But they’ve also literally asked if she’s gay before so idk. But at least I know for sure her sister will be chill about it cus she loves me. She’s also been wanting us to date forever. 

I’m going to homecoming with her and we’re making each other posters. I’m so excited. It’s not wonderful work or anything but I’m having so much fun with it. I’m so happy to finally have these high school experiences.

Update 3/18/26:
okay yeah we've been dating for going on 6 months now :)