having a parent with a transferable job

I hate it, bro. It sucks, plus I have really bad anxiety, and being with my grandparents helps me with that. But now I have moved back to my "home". Just for some context, my dad lives elsewhere because he was transferred there, and my mum and I didn't move with him because we had better opportunities here. Honestly, I hate this place. I don't want to live with my dad or my mum; I just want to live with my grandparents.

This place has given me so much anxiety and trauma, and whenever I get an anxiety attack, I just feel so alone because it's just me, my mum, and my cat here. I don't feel comfortable being expressive with my parents anymore, but then I feel like I am complaining too much. Still, I can't help how I feel. I am going to have my practical soon, and to be honest, I don't think I am prepared for it. The anxiety is eating me up. I know some people have a way harder life than me, but I still can't help feeling weak. These small things break me so much.

I don't wish to be strong or conquer anything anymore; I just want to avoid it all. 

Honestly, I want to rant a lot more, but I think that would be too much for anyone to read.

Anyway, if anyone has any advice, especially with the practical exam thing, cause whenever I think about that shit, I get reallyyyyyy scared , let me know