Entry 38 || Migraine

Heya.

Been a while.

Figured I’d try to write something a little more structured since things have been nothing but a whirlwind. Though I’m not entirely sure if writing whilst having a not-so-great day would help with that.

Anyway,

Things can be better on my end.

For instance: my head. It’s killing me. The pressure underneath my skull—so unbearable that I can barely keep my eyes open to type this thing just from how painful it feels. Every individual nerve and neuron around my eyes feel like they can swell up and explode any minute, all while my body feels like it’s got its own fever.

I don’t even have a fever. I’ve checked.

Lying down adds even more pressure to my head—honestly feels like having your head caught between a large cloth clip.

I haven’t really done much other than schoolwork, not to mention the other activities that I need to catch up on.

So what’s the problem?

I don’t really know what to think anymore.

There’s too much stuff going on. School, relationships, personal stuff.

Everyday’s just been a constant back and forth of “why’d you say this? Why’d you say that? Are you stupid?”

“You shouldn’t have done this, you should have said something else.”

“Fucking up. You’re real good at that.”

“So great job, you’ve done it again.”

“You’re truly a terrible person who deserves to be alone.”

I’m having a migraine.

I know I need ointment.

But it’s across the room

and I can’t walk right now.