Does anyone else feel like their trauma isn't valid because there are people out there who have it harder than you?
Random trauma dump:
Okay so I was bullied for almost 9 years and I became suicidal and started SH and everything and I felt like I was the problem all this time and I got into therapy but my therapist just kept saying, "And what was your part in it that they started bullying you. You must have done something to provoke them." And like all I did was exist and paint my nails black and wear black clothes and that was enough for them to bully me. Even before I started dressing like that. Then the excuses were that I was too tall, too skinny, too fat, too ugly, too fast, too slow, too smart, too stupid or just useless. Their bullying was emotionally and physically. Like stalking me, burning me with cigarettes and telling me I should die or kms.
I still get very heavy panick attacks and suffer 24/7 from anxiety and I flinch at every single little sound I hear. I don't trust anyone and I don't think I ever completely will. And it's hard you know, to just go on with your life as if nothing ever happened.
And like I have friends, I have a good family, I have a roof over my head and I have freedom.
That's why it doesn't feel valid.
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Liberating madness
Therapists are quacks and this one sucked balls.
Understand that whether suffering is big or small in the end it is still suffering there is no grandeur or insignificance to suffering and trauma.
Do not let yourself believe that your suffering is worth less than others but also do not let it define you overcome triumph love fear but do not let it rule you, love life but do not let it trap you suffering is something to overcome not to be imprisoned in.
Thank you =)
I definitely needed to hear this.
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