new and old responsibilities

today was my first day of closing as a "manager-on-duty" (starbucks translation: shift supervisor) and it's honestly pretty nice. the mod always leaves last, which is great because i need as much money as i can get for my trip. speaking of... my time off got approved !!! i dunno how much PTO i'm gonna accrue by then, but hopefully its enough to cover at least one day. and apparently we reintroduced tipping again, so i'll get a few extra dollars a week too. it feels like all i talk about nowadays is money, but its hard not to think of it when you have none.

i'm really excited for october. i was freaking out about how i was going to afford it, but after doing a ton of budgeting and rebudgeting, i think i'll be just fine.

i miss my friends. in the past i feel like i've been looking forward to going for the wrong reasons. i never went to college (at least not in any meaningful ways) so it feels like im always chasing the "college experience" of partying. and like. every time ive disappointed myself doing that.

i remember the last time i visited we were planning on going clubbing, but only me and one of my friends ended up wanting to go. so none of us ended up going. but instead we drove to a supermarket at 12 am, bought snacks, and watched Its Always Sunny until 4 am. and it was probably the best night of my life. and in that moment i realized how selfish i was being. and the thing i should actually care about is being there with my friends instead of chasing a self-indulgent pipe dream.

this years itinerary so far is:

• horror event at local theme park
• medieval themed rave
• bar hopping and/or sex store escapade (for the lolz)
• probably going to my friends classes
• and probably more Its Always Sunny

i don't have any work tomorrow, and i get paid the day after, so i'm probably going to code the rest of the night. i've been trying to make a grocery list on the Safeway app but all of the coupons expire tomorrow. meaning i won't know what the deals are until Wed. i'll be fine. i can plan it out on the bus rise to taekwondo.