stupid

ive felt weird ever since tht happend, and idk wen its gonna go away, or if it ever will. am i destined 2 b alone? i feel the most lonely ive ever felt in my life, even tho i have many friends n ppl around me. i like being single. luv it ac. but @ the same time i wanna b luved by sum1 special yk. i started collage a week ago and its very chill and i like it. on halloween im gonna go clubbin wit my Bff. she means alot 2 me and i hope she gets that. i have no intrest in romance or luv in any romantic sense rn. y should i? lol. ive started bayonetta on my xbox and im luving it. i have 2 guys dat i mess with rn. nutin srs cause i dont want dat. i like watching kevin spencer the most rn. i see sum similarties between me n him. dat sounds gay. i hope i feel less lonely soon. ive been yearning alot 2 have a more fun life with way more friends dat get me yk? but i h8 yearning. very painfull. i need 2 apply 4 modeling i keep 4getting. overall my life has been very peacefull and boring, but ive felt more alone then ever. probs will get btter though so i should stop cryin.