the ache consumes (poem)

 the ache consumes

why try when your body tells you you’re dying?

why try when you feel like you’re dying?

my body aches, a constant reminder of the underlying mystery in my body.

i wake up day after day trying to find the cure to the ache,

the ache that lays deep inside me,

tangled in my blood,

tangled in my heart,

and tangled in my brain.

it stays with me like a parasite

eating away my energy, 

                                    day after day

for once maybe ill feel something for an instance. 

but then it all goes down the drain

everything i tried back into the shed,

locked deep away as the parasite watches over me.

looming over me like a shadow.

a dark mystery really.

i chase after it and possibly catching it by its tail,

       til it slips away,

                               slowly and agonizingly.

i think to myself;

                         “til next time you return i will make sure to not let you go”

and maybe,

                 just maybe.

                                    the parasite will leave me for good.