State-of-mind

This Is High - More Amor - YouTube

I've been writing applications for what feels like weeks. Cross-eyed and delirious. I hated high school but listening to the songs that I would listen to makes me miss it. Last night I dreamed about my elementary school crush, and this morning I looked him up on LinkedIn. God what a sentence. I learned he has a middle name. It makes me remember being a kid and going to Mandarin school with him. Or maybe I'm making up that memory; it was so long ago. 

I miss Wattpad and AO3 and Pandora Radio and the smell of my home's musty living room carpet. Last month I redownloaded Dragon City Mobile and Smurfs villiage. Its so weird how companies and apps and consumables are the tokens to unlocking my nostalgia. 

My Instagram feed is full of Snoopy and Looney Tunes and Tom&Jerry. I don't know where this feeling of displacement is coming from. I blame the applications. I've been forced to think about myself too much. I'm sick of me and values and cooking and cleaning. Can't I just be a stupid kid rotting my brain with T&J The Fast and the Furry-ous? I just wanna play but my friends aren't here :/ right now. And when they are, its still more work.

Here's another high school song for ya. :3 :P

The Young Veins - Take A Vacation! (Official Video)