I feel bad and I have no one to talk to

Hello, I feel bad, and I don't know who to talk to. I don't know how to explain these feelings. I've been sad these days. Could it be because of loneliness? Although I always said it was better to be alone, I think now, being alone, makes me feel bad.

I write poems, I don't draw as much anymore because I feel that my drawings don't turn out well, and between verse and verse, time passes, and I feel alone reading, writing... even among a lot of people, I don't know how to socialize well, I feel that everyone is going to judge me for what I was and they won't see what I am.

well, idk..