still struggling but i’m trying my best!! > <

i’ve been struggling a little bit lately, but i’m doing much better today.

recently i’ve been wanting to become more confident and proud of myself and not caring what others think because i’m a kagamine len oshi.

the words still hurt, they sting and i can’t get them out of my head. i haven’t been able to since forever. i want to be strong. len uplifts me so much, i’ll try to be strong!

just because i’m attached to him for some extra mental health support doesn’t mean it will hold me back in life. i find it rude someone would think of me to be at risk of that anyways >:( i’m not fucking stupid! and yes, i’ll be able to find a job! why should i have to stop the fun once i get older, hmm? who cares!!

i just wish the words would stop repeating over and over again. such a terrible thing was said about len’s existence as a whole too. why would someone come to such a concerning (and pretty disturbing) conclusion about him like that? it makes me sick. 

i’ve been finally accepting the fact that yes, i am and I do have a right to be angry. i feel like i’ve been disrespected as a person and it pisses me off. yeah like i’m tooootally “destroying myself” just for healthily channeling my emotions. you know i’m better than that. sorry i cope in a different way :P

like okay i’m sorry i’m like this way, i can’t help it! why don’t they understand?!? i’m sorry for being weaker than you….