the fuck is love

how the the fuck can fall in love I don't think I have ever felt the feeling I mean I have felt platonic  live but I have never felt romantic love before. sometimes I feel like I want a partner but I've never even had a crush. at this point I don't even think I want to fall in love. all of my friends are falling in love and getting partners and its just so messy and idk why I would want that. I just feel like something is wrong with me because what teen girl hasn't even had a crush before.